Graduation prep thoughts

Graduation is almost upon me.

On one hand I am excited.
But..
On the other, this is the world that I have immersed myself in for the last 2 years.
I have changed so much in that time, I don't know exactly how to function in the outside world anymore. Class, homework, practicum, eat, sleep, shower- repeat. My divorce changed my life. I have set goals and am about to accomplish them, and it feels good.

 But.. What do I do Now? Change is coming. That's okay. I need to figure it out. I know I need to find a job, and apartment ,all that grown up stuff. Thankfully, I am not in debt. Where to live, what to do, its up to me! My parents are supportive, I know whatever I chose they will accept.

Graduation.. is in the evening. Graduation Party?? I am so torn. I kind of want one, and yet I really dislike parties. I would like to just curl up and read a book the next day.  But, I want to be recognized for getting this program done. At the same time, I don't like being the center of attention and all the stress that comes with the parties. What to do?  Any recommendations? Also, my parents are moving so doing anything at the house is not a good option. And remember, I'm not working yet so , my finances are tight.

I know some of my extended family would like the opportunity to celebrate my accomplishments with me. They know I worked hard to get this degree done. (sigh) Its not all about me, even though this post kind of sounds like it. :(

Mid Week Recap

The first part of the week has been fairly calm.. Except for one SMALL detail..

My sister got a part time job,that is a good thing. It is the night shift and its close to home . However, that means that my mom and I are the childcare for the 10mtn old and the 5 year old.

This is not what  I thought we would be doing .. its ok, but we are going to have t adjust .

This semester is going to be intense. Not like last year, this year is more" hands up",there is a plethora of things to keep straight. I have my schedule color coded and I'm not sure that it will be enough. I am planning on staying at school late 2 days a week to try to study. It is a challenge to do here with the baby and her brother.

I have trouble focusing on studying for school and ignoring the baby, when I know in less than 9 months, I will be graduating and Hopefully moving.

Todays post brought to you by my friend COFFEE. I am going to be drinking many cups this semester. :)

Pax

waiting

This is a bit more than I normally share with you. But I felt like maybe someone else needed to hear it too.


Waiting is hard.
I have a hard time waiting for directions from God. Sometimes. What to do, where to go, what is my next step? I keep asking. "Pray without ceasing." I can do that, and often do. I am a work in progress .
"Patience is a Virtue"- I work on practicing patience.

 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your path"-Proverbs 3:5-6

I am leaning heavily on this verse. Trusting in God sounds easy, its not always. I don't understand some things, but, I know that God has a way better plan than I could ever imagine.

Sometimes the things that you think are a given are far from it. People can betray, trust can be broken, hurt happens. But God still is there.


 I am waiting for a piece of mail. Waiting again. Its Hard! Once that piece of mail comes I can finish this chapter and start a new one. I will also be able to share with anyone who actually reads this what I am being so cryptic about.


If you would these next few weeks, keep me in your thoughts. This part of the journey is bumpy.
I still have to survive my finals and whatever else happens.

Pax